1 00:00:01,100 --> 00:00:03,180 [David] I sometimes do this thing where I see people. 2 00:00:05,017 --> 00:00:08,368 People die, or I think they're gonna die. 3 00:00:08,412 --> 00:00:10,718 I see 'em. 4 00:00:10,762 --> 00:00:13,591 The visions, they're a symptom of trauma 5 00:00:13,634 --> 00:00:15,549 that hasn't been worked through. 6 00:00:15,593 --> 00:00:18,378 You needed it when you were young to cope with the grief, 7 00:00:18,422 --> 00:00:20,946 but the behavior it's still there. 8 00:00:20,989 --> 00:00:24,253 All it's doing now is deadening yourself 9 00:00:24,297 --> 00:00:26,517 to anyone who's important to you. 10 00:00:26,560 --> 00:00:28,475 [David] I'm good. 11 00:00:28,519 --> 00:00:29,824 I really am. 12 00:00:31,565 --> 00:00:34,568 [tranquil music] 13 00:00:36,315 --> 00:00:42,389 -== [ www.OpenSubtitles.org ] ==- 14 00:01:00,420 --> 00:01:02,596 [ominous music] 15 00:01:09,647 --> 00:01:13,128 [water ebbing] 16 00:01:24,270 --> 00:01:26,185 [Halloway] Hello, David. 17 00:01:27,665 --> 00:01:29,406 David? 18 00:01:30,842 --> 00:01:33,584 Yes, we good to go? 19 00:01:33,627 --> 00:01:34,846 - [tranquil music] - Mmm. 20 00:01:38,284 --> 00:01:39,894 - It's good to see you. - Thanks. 21 00:01:39,938 --> 00:01:43,202 - We have a lot to cover today. - That's just fine. 22 00:01:50,688 --> 00:01:52,646 Can we make this a brainstorming session? 23 00:01:55,170 --> 00:01:56,476 All right. 24 00:01:56,520 --> 00:01:57,627 I've got a lot going on at work. 25 00:01:57,651 --> 00:01:58,933 I just need to bounce ideas around. 26 00:01:58,957 --> 00:02:00,741 I mean, specific issues, problems, 27 00:02:00,785 --> 00:02:03,135 and I need specific answers. 28 00:02:03,178 --> 00:02:04,571 We can do that. 29 00:02:04,615 --> 00:02:06,530 This isn't about analyzing anything, 30 00:02:06,573 --> 00:02:09,271 it's problem-solving. I have a list. 31 00:02:12,100 --> 00:02:14,059 Let's go through it. [clears throat] 32 00:02:14,102 --> 00:02:16,757 - Y-You're okay with that? - This is your time, David. 33 00:02:16,801 --> 00:02:18,019 I'm here to help. 34 00:02:18,063 --> 00:02:19,804 Good, I just wanted to be clear. 35 00:02:19,847 --> 00:02:21,370 You were very clear. 36 00:02:25,287 --> 00:02:28,465 T-The redevelopment project I talked to you about 37 00:02:28,508 --> 00:02:29,596 at the Ville, 38 00:02:29,640 --> 00:02:31,119 it's hit some snags. 39 00:02:31,163 --> 00:02:33,054 People I know, people who I thought were my friends 40 00:02:33,078 --> 00:02:35,515 are trying to undermine the whole thing. 41 00:02:35,559 --> 00:02:36,951 That can't be feeling very good. 42 00:02:36,995 --> 00:02:39,606 No, and I have under three months 43 00:02:39,650 --> 00:02:41,303 to make this billionaire backing it 44 00:02:41,347 --> 00:02:43,697 look like a hero for the upcoming mayoral race. 45 00:02:43,741 --> 00:02:46,091 I mean, I have no room for failure. 46 00:02:46,134 --> 00:02:49,573 It sounds like a pretty chaotic situation, David. 47 00:02:49,616 --> 00:02:51,289 - Are you feeling any... - Feelings have nothing 48 00:02:51,313 --> 00:02:52,445 to do with this. 49 00:02:52,489 --> 00:02:53,838 Practical, please. 50 00:02:55,883 --> 00:02:58,190 I've already done all the legwork. 51 00:02:58,233 --> 00:03:00,168 I just need your help to navigate through all of this 52 00:03:00,192 --> 00:03:01,236 and 53 00:03:02,194 --> 00:03:03,674 uh 54 00:03:03,717 --> 00:03:05,565 Here's the checklist for everything we need to accomplish 55 00:03:05,589 --> 00:03:06,938 in this day's session, 56 00:03:06,981 --> 00:03:08,592 color-coded by order of priority. 57 00:03:08,635 --> 00:03:11,290 [suspenseful music] 58 00:03:15,599 --> 00:03:16,643 Deal? 59 00:03:22,606 --> 00:03:25,217 [ominous music] 60 00:03:44,802 --> 00:03:46,717 By fixing this work stuff, 61 00:03:46,760 --> 00:03:48,762 everything else falls into place. 62 00:03:48,806 --> 00:03:50,764 Now, I was on track moving forward, 63 00:03:50,808 --> 00:03:52,026 until these two 64 00:03:52,070 --> 00:03:53,787 who I thought were my friends threw a wrench 65 00:03:53,811 --> 00:03:55,203 into the whole thing. 66 00:03:59,773 --> 00:04:02,907 This one right here, Seren, my best friend. 67 00:04:02,950 --> 00:04:04,909 I risked my ass for this kid, 68 00:04:04,952 --> 00:04:07,868 and now he's some gigolo lobbyist. 69 00:04:07,912 --> 00:04:10,392 I mean, the man tried to kiss me, 70 00:04:10,436 --> 00:04:13,961 but I got that straightened out. It doesn't matter. 71 00:04:14,005 --> 00:04:19,358 Anyway, this here, she the one he scheming with, Marissa, 72 00:04:19,401 --> 00:04:21,621 and I've known 'em both since like forever. 73 00:04:22,970 --> 00:04:25,582 Maybe I ain't treat her that great in the past. 74 00:04:25,625 --> 00:04:28,367 I mean, we... she 75 00:04:29,890 --> 00:04:31,631 we slept together in the laundry room 76 00:04:31,675 --> 00:04:32,893 at the Ville the other day, 77 00:04:32,937 --> 00:04:34,460 so I thought we were cool. 78 00:04:34,503 --> 00:04:36,070 I mean, the point is, 79 00:04:36,114 --> 00:04:37,855 I had nothing but trust and good intentions, 80 00:04:37,898 --> 00:04:40,466 and then my best friend, 81 00:04:40,509 --> 00:04:42,903 he turns around and gives her spiteful ass 82 00:04:42,947 --> 00:04:44,513 this toxicity report. 83 00:04:44,557 --> 00:04:47,734 So, if that's the way they wanna play that way, 84 00:04:47,778 --> 00:04:49,736 then I'ma fuck them both right back. 85 00:04:50,868 --> 00:04:53,566 [David breathes heavily, scoffs] 86 00:04:53,610 --> 00:04:56,787 Without losing my cool or getting angry. 87 00:04:56,830 --> 00:04:58,136 But you do seem angry. 88 00:04:58,179 --> 00:05:00,791 And that's why we need to talk strategy. 89 00:05:00,834 --> 00:05:02,662 Why do you do this job? 90 00:05:02,706 --> 00:05:03,881 Do you like it? 91 00:05:03,924 --> 00:05:05,970 Well, yeah, I mean, I'm good at it, 92 00:05:06,013 --> 00:05:07,711 but then this shit comes at me. 93 00:05:07,754 --> 00:05:09,016 And that causes you stress? 94 00:05:09,060 --> 00:05:11,758 Hell yeah, that's why I'm here, to fix it. 95 00:05:11,802 --> 00:05:14,674 You function very well under stress, don't you? 96 00:05:15,936 --> 00:05:17,546 Yes, I do. 97 00:05:17,590 --> 00:05:19,505 Maybe functioning like this, 98 00:05:19,548 --> 00:05:23,640 under the gun is actually more comfortable to you. 99 00:05:25,250 --> 00:05:27,818 - We getting off topic. - There is a high-risk, 100 00:05:27,861 --> 00:05:29,907 high-reward to what you do, right? 101 00:05:30,864 --> 00:05:32,953 Maybe that suits your needs. 102 00:05:32,997 --> 00:05:34,476 Look, I really don't wanna talk... 103 00:05:34,520 --> 00:05:37,001 Do you remember the chaos we discussed 104 00:05:37,044 --> 00:05:38,524 in your last session? 105 00:05:41,179 --> 00:05:42,267 Sure. 106 00:05:42,310 --> 00:05:45,400 It seems to be all around you, 107 00:05:45,444 --> 00:05:47,446 and I'm wondering, is it possible 108 00:05:47,489 --> 00:05:50,971 that you might have a hand in creating it? 109 00:05:51,015 --> 00:05:53,060 I didn't create this. This isn't my fault. 110 00:05:53,104 --> 00:05:54,932 I told you, those so-called friends of mi... 111 00:05:54,975 --> 00:05:58,849 I understand, and you don't feel you played a role 112 00:05:58,892 --> 00:06:00,677 in any of this? 113 00:06:00,720 --> 00:06:03,810 You were just a passive observer in kissing Seren, 114 00:06:03,854 --> 00:06:06,552 and having sex with Marissa in the laundry room? 115 00:06:06,595 --> 00:06:07,771 I didn't kiss Seren! 116 00:06:07,814 --> 00:06:09,120 You know what? 117 00:06:09,163 --> 00:06:11,600 That's not the point. 118 00:06:11,644 --> 00:06:13,428 I was good to them both. 119 00:06:13,472 --> 00:06:14,778 I saved Seren. 120 00:06:14,821 --> 00:06:16,388 He even said it, 121 00:06:16,431 --> 00:06:18,172 and God knows I was nice to a girl 122 00:06:18,216 --> 00:06:20,174 who had no chance with anybody. 123 00:06:20,218 --> 00:06:23,264 I thought you said you didn't treat her so well in the past. 124 00:06:23,308 --> 00:06:24,875 What are we even talking about? 125 00:06:24,918 --> 00:06:26,877 Kisses with someone you haven't seen in years 126 00:06:26,920 --> 00:06:28,966 who you think betrayed you. 127 00:06:29,009 --> 00:06:30,707 Sex in the laundry room with a woman 128 00:06:30,750 --> 00:06:34,014 who is contesting the validity of your development project? 129 00:06:34,058 --> 00:06:39,063 None of that seems high-risk at all to you, David? 130 00:06:39,106 --> 00:06:41,761 The kind of high risk that causes chaos? 131 00:06:41,805 --> 00:06:44,503 The only chaos here is them, 132 00:06:44,546 --> 00:06:46,766 the one who's supposed to have my back. 133 00:06:46,810 --> 00:06:48,463 Nigga told me, 134 00:06:48,507 --> 00:06:50,639 I mean N word, told me I don't know who I am. 135 00:06:50,683 --> 00:06:53,642 He must have had a significant impact on your life to have 136 00:06:53,686 --> 00:06:56,036 that much power over you after not seeing him 137 00:06:56,080 --> 00:06:57,603 for all those years. 138 00:06:58,560 --> 00:06:59,953 What about that? 139 00:06:59,997 --> 00:07:01,999 Waiting to teach you something new at night, huh? 140 00:07:02,042 --> 00:07:05,524 [suspenseful music] 141 00:07:05,567 --> 00:07:07,134 [punch thuds] 142 00:07:07,178 --> 00:07:12,009 - Nothing to talk about. - David? 143 00:07:12,052 --> 00:07:15,534 I wonder if it's worth considering the fact 144 00:07:15,577 --> 00:07:18,798 that Marissa and Seren aren't actually out to get you. 145 00:07:18,842 --> 00:07:19,973 But they are! 146 00:07:20,017 --> 00:07:21,496 I mean, I told you. 147 00:07:21,540 --> 00:07:23,803 Look, we don't need to be doing this. 148 00:07:23,847 --> 00:07:25,413 It's not helpful. 149 00:07:26,763 --> 00:07:28,112 I need specifics here. 150 00:07:28,155 --> 00:07:30,157 Okay, I need answers. 151 00:07:45,738 --> 00:07:47,609 Who is Brandon Machado? 152 00:07:47,653 --> 00:07:50,047 An excellent life coach. 153 00:07:50,090 --> 00:07:51,048 Isn't that what you're supposed to do? 154 00:07:51,091 --> 00:07:52,527 Help me solve my problems. 155 00:07:52,571 --> 00:07:54,834 David, you want your outside world 156 00:07:54,878 --> 00:07:57,837 to look different without changing anything on the inside, 157 00:07:57,881 --> 00:07:59,404 that's not what I do. 158 00:07:59,447 --> 00:08:01,275 Brandon is very motivational. 159 00:08:01,319 --> 00:08:02,886 He'll make you feel good. 160 00:08:02,929 --> 00:08:04,931 Real good, very good. 161 00:08:04,975 --> 00:08:06,367 Cut and dried. 162 00:08:06,411 --> 00:08:08,848 I think that's a better fit for you. 163 00:08:08,892 --> 00:08:10,241 Nothing deep... 164 00:08:15,724 --> 00:08:16,987 You raggedy bitch! 165 00:08:18,945 --> 00:08:21,600 [clock ticking] 166 00:08:29,042 --> 00:08:31,088 [clock ticking] 167 00:08:41,402 --> 00:08:42,969 I paid for an hour with you. 168 00:08:43,013 --> 00:08:44,971 And I will happily refund all of it 169 00:08:45,015 --> 00:08:46,930 if you choose to leave now. 170 00:08:46,973 --> 00:08:49,976 Look, I don't have time to explain all this shit to someone else. 171 00:08:50,020 --> 00:08:53,066 Can you please just do your job and help me fix this? 172 00:08:53,110 --> 00:08:55,895 I'll do my job, David, I promise, 173 00:08:55,939 --> 00:08:59,333 but I need to do it the way I do it, okay? 174 00:08:59,943 --> 00:09:01,292 Okay. 175 00:09:04,469 --> 00:09:06,166 How are things with you and Nicole? 176 00:09:06,210 --> 00:09:08,081 Nicole? What does she have to do with this? 177 00:09:08,125 --> 00:09:09,996 Are you still seeing her? 178 00:09:10,040 --> 00:09:11,868 Yup, I mean, not every day, but yup. 179 00:09:11,911 --> 00:09:13,086 W-Why? 180 00:09:13,130 --> 00:09:15,697 I'm wondering how sex with Marissa fit 181 00:09:15,741 --> 00:09:16,742 into that relationship. 182 00:09:16,785 --> 00:09:17,786 That was a one-off. 183 00:09:17,830 --> 00:09:19,092 It didn't mean anything. 184 00:09:19,136 --> 00:09:22,008 So you and Nicole aren't exclusive? 185 00:09:22,052 --> 00:09:23,531 No, it's an open relationship. 186 00:09:23,575 --> 00:09:26,708 But you would describe it as a relationship. 187 00:09:26,752 --> 00:09:29,015 Yeah, sure, I guess. 188 00:09:29,059 --> 00:09:31,104 Did you tell her about Marissa? 189 00:09:31,148 --> 00:09:33,411 - She knows. - And she's fine with it? 190 00:09:33,454 --> 00:09:36,501 With that, but she was tripping on some other shit. 191 00:09:36,544 --> 00:09:37,894 So she was upset? 192 00:09:37,937 --> 00:09:41,941 Yeah, no, not-not about that, about JG. 193 00:09:41,985 --> 00:09:43,160 What about JG? 194 00:09:43,203 --> 00:09:45,031 Look, we don't need to talk about... 195 00:09:45,075 --> 00:09:49,079 I understand, you wanna talk about work-related things. 196 00:09:49,122 --> 00:09:51,559 Marissa is work-related, isn't she? 197 00:09:57,652 --> 00:09:58,740 Nicole and I 198 00:10:00,917 --> 00:10:03,093 we try, you know? 199 00:10:03,136 --> 00:10:06,618 We are tryna work things out, but it's hard. 200 00:10:06,661 --> 00:10:09,360 It's not like we got the best examples to go by. 201 00:10:12,406 --> 00:10:14,539 Just tryna be real with each other. 202 00:10:18,847 --> 00:10:22,982 And maybe me hooking up with Marissa was my way 203 00:10:23,026 --> 00:10:25,028 of driving a wedge in that, 204 00:10:25,071 --> 00:10:26,812 keepin' a wall up with Nicole, 205 00:10:26,855 --> 00:10:30,207 because it's scary to me to get really close to someone. 206 00:10:33,036 --> 00:10:34,298 Does that make sense? 207 00:10:35,516 --> 00:10:38,171 Makes a lot of sense, David. 208 00:10:39,607 --> 00:10:41,958 Very insightful. 209 00:10:42,001 --> 00:10:45,004 Okay, thanks for pushing me. 210 00:10:46,832 --> 00:10:51,184 Well, maybe it is helpful to think these things through, 211 00:10:51,228 --> 00:10:53,056 you know, talk things out. 212 00:10:53,099 --> 00:10:54,187 Good. 213 00:10:55,928 --> 00:10:58,713 All right, let's try something, 214 00:10:58,757 --> 00:11:04,545 we're gonna sit here for ten seconds and not say a word. 215 00:11:04,589 --> 00:11:07,896 Just ten seconds of complete silence. 216 00:11:08,985 --> 00:11:09,986 All right? 217 00:11:12,249 --> 00:11:13,337 Sure. 218 00:11:15,817 --> 00:11:16,905 Starting 219 00:11:18,777 --> 00:11:19,996 now. 220 00:11:23,216 --> 00:11:26,132 [clock ticking] 221 00:11:26,176 --> 00:11:27,916 [David sighs] 222 00:11:27,960 --> 00:11:30,354 [David thinking] What a waste of time. 223 00:11:30,397 --> 00:11:32,356 Is that a mosquito? Zika! 224 00:11:34,575 --> 00:11:36,055 Why is she staring at me? 225 00:11:36,099 --> 00:11:38,057 What am I doing? 226 00:11:38,101 --> 00:11:41,104 Okay, I'm going to just sit here quietly, 227 00:11:41,147 --> 00:11:44,368 not going to give her anything she can use against me. 228 00:11:44,411 --> 00:11:46,065 Dammit, she saw that. 229 00:11:46,109 --> 00:11:48,894 Ugh, hasn't it been fucking ten seconds already? 230 00:11:48,937 --> 00:11:51,070 No, don't look, sign of weakness, 231 00:11:51,114 --> 00:11:52,550 you got this. 232 00:11:52,593 --> 00:11:54,465 Why did I fucking mention Marissa? 233 00:11:54,508 --> 00:11:58,121 Idiot, now this doctor lady's punishing me for it. 234 00:12:00,297 --> 00:12:01,820 Did I eat today? 235 00:12:01,863 --> 00:12:04,779 Damn, Conch Fritters sound so good. 236 00:12:04,823 --> 00:12:07,869 Hey, ma'am, who're you sharing your bed with? 237 00:12:07,913 --> 00:12:11,090 Let's talk about that, so I can pass some judgment. 238 00:12:11,134 --> 00:12:12,657 I should just go to a lawyer. 239 00:12:12,700 --> 00:12:14,200 Shoulda did that in the first fucking place. 240 00:12:14,224 --> 00:12:15,529 She don't know about business. 241 00:12:15,573 --> 00:12:18,184 Seren, fuck Seren, playin' me. 242 00:12:18,228 --> 00:12:19,707 He think I'm some kind of fool. 243 00:12:19,751 --> 00:12:21,187 [Holloway] David? 244 00:12:21,231 --> 00:12:22,599 [David thinking] And I'm not fuckin' 15 either! 245 00:12:22,623 --> 00:12:24,321 - I'm a grown ass man! - Ten. 246 00:12:25,452 --> 00:12:28,325 Where were you just now? 247 00:12:28,368 --> 00:12:30,849 - Sitting here. - Sweating? 248 00:12:34,026 --> 00:12:35,549 It's hot outside. 249 00:12:35,593 --> 00:12:37,682 That seemed difficult for you. 250 00:12:39,597 --> 00:12:40,946 Fine. 251 00:12:40,989 --> 00:12:45,168 - Even without your playbook? - Playbook? 252 00:12:45,211 --> 00:12:47,126 That explanation about Nicole, 253 00:12:47,170 --> 00:12:49,215 about you putting distance between you two, 254 00:12:49,259 --> 00:12:51,609 your fear of closeness. 255 00:12:51,652 --> 00:12:55,134 - Yeah, that was the truth. - No, that's performing. 256 00:12:55,178 --> 00:12:56,440 That's you telling me exactly 257 00:12:56,483 --> 00:12:58,137 what you thought I wanted to hear, 258 00:12:58,181 --> 00:13:01,140 so that we could shut it down and move on. 259 00:13:01,184 --> 00:13:04,752 Then, when we sat in silence, 260 00:13:04,796 --> 00:13:07,233 you were forced to live in the present 261 00:13:07,277 --> 00:13:11,455 for just a moment and actually feel something. 262 00:13:11,498 --> 00:13:14,284 Can you tell me what you're feeling, David? 263 00:13:14,327 --> 00:13:15,720 Can you identify that? 264 00:13:15,763 --> 00:13:18,592 Can you tell me what you are feeling right now? 265 00:13:18,636 --> 00:13:20,309 I'm feeling like I'm tired as fuck of you telling me 266 00:13:20,333 --> 00:13:21,726 what I came here for! 267 00:13:28,689 --> 00:13:29,995 Not bad. 268 00:13:30,038 --> 00:13:32,650 [ominous music] 269 00:13:36,436 --> 00:13:39,222 Now that didn't kill you, did it? 270 00:13:39,265 --> 00:13:41,093 No. 271 00:13:41,137 --> 00:13:44,444 But I... I don't like that. 272 00:13:46,142 --> 00:13:48,100 I don't like to act like that. 273 00:13:48,144 --> 00:13:51,843 Trust me, ma'am, please. 274 00:13:51,886 --> 00:13:57,283 So can we maybe just stick to work stuff right now? 275 00:14:00,199 --> 00:14:01,331 Okay. 276 00:14:02,941 --> 00:14:07,511 Why don't you describe to me exactly what it is you do? 277 00:14:07,554 --> 00:14:13,604 [chuckles] Okay, yes, so, um, I'm a law consultant, 278 00:14:13,647 --> 00:14:15,083 I've told you that. 279 00:14:15,127 --> 00:14:17,085 I work for a large real estate firm. 280 00:14:17,129 --> 00:14:18,565 And what does that entail? 281 00:14:18,609 --> 00:14:20,872 I draw up plans, present them to city commissioners, 282 00:14:20,915 --> 00:14:23,962 and I acquire permits to get projects approved. 283 00:14:24,005 --> 00:14:27,226 And how long does all of this approval process usually take? 284 00:14:27,270 --> 00:14:30,055 It depends on the size and scope of the project. 285 00:14:30,098 --> 00:14:31,511 The largest ones can take up to years. 286 00:14:31,535 --> 00:14:33,319 Like the Ville redevelopment? 287 00:14:33,363 --> 00:14:36,279 Definitely, a project that size can take up to six years 288 00:14:36,322 --> 00:14:37,584 to get everything approved. 289 00:14:37,628 --> 00:14:40,892 Yet you've condensed it to six months, you said? 290 00:14:42,110 --> 00:14:44,374 Wow, that's impressive. 291 00:14:44,417 --> 00:14:46,027 Thank you. 292 00:14:46,071 --> 00:14:48,116 - Why? - Huh? 293 00:14:48,160 --> 00:14:51,903 Why are you working so hard to pull off a miracle like that? 294 00:14:56,429 --> 00:14:58,823 Here's what you need to understand, 295 00:14:58,866 --> 00:15:02,392 this isn't some clock-in-clock-out nine-to-five, alright. 296 00:15:02,435 --> 00:15:03,480 It's not a job. 297 00:15:04,307 --> 00:15:05,569 It's a career. 298 00:15:05,612 --> 00:15:08,224 It's a livelihood. It's my name. 299 00:15:09,790 --> 00:15:11,923 I do what no one else can, 300 00:15:11,966 --> 00:15:14,142 and I have to in order to be the best. 301 00:15:14,186 --> 00:15:17,276 Sure, someone else can make more money faster 302 00:15:17,320 --> 00:15:21,759 pushing gas stations and corner shops every few years. 303 00:15:21,802 --> 00:15:24,501 But in order to build a legacy, 304 00:15:24,544 --> 00:15:27,895 so that I'm the only one that people come to, 305 00:15:27,939 --> 00:15:31,551 I have to close bigger deals in record time. 306 00:15:31,595 --> 00:15:34,119 I make deals so that I am seen. 307 00:15:34,162 --> 00:15:35,294 People see you, 308 00:15:35,338 --> 00:15:37,078 they elevate you. 309 00:15:37,122 --> 00:15:38,297 But more than that, 310 00:15:38,341 --> 00:15:40,560 everyone in Miami knows, 311 00:15:40,604 --> 00:15:42,345 you need something done, 312 00:15:42,388 --> 00:15:43,650 you call David Young. 313 00:15:45,565 --> 00:15:47,088 So it seems. 314 00:15:48,786 --> 00:15:51,963 I'm curious if you were 315 00:15:52,006 --> 00:15:55,140 to imagine your life ten years from now, 316 00:15:55,183 --> 00:15:56,359 twenty years from now, 317 00:15:56,402 --> 00:15:58,883 and you are seen the one to call, 318 00:15:59,666 --> 00:16:01,755 what will you be doing? 319 00:16:01,799 --> 00:16:04,323 If you were to stay on this path, 320 00:16:04,367 --> 00:16:05,324 where does it lead? 321 00:16:05,368 --> 00:16:07,587 Is there an ultimate goal? 322 00:16:07,631 --> 00:16:08,632 Yeah, I mean... 323 00:16:08,675 --> 00:16:11,156 This accelerated timeline, 324 00:16:11,199 --> 00:16:13,898 it's a space you thrive in, isn't it? 325 00:16:13,941 --> 00:16:15,726 I told you, I'm good at my job. 326 00:16:15,769 --> 00:16:21,209 But with it comes all these stressors, expectant bosses, 327 00:16:21,253 --> 00:16:22,907 antagonistic commissioners, 328 00:16:22,950 --> 00:16:26,476 old friends trying to undermine you. 329 00:16:26,519 --> 00:16:29,392 It seems you create this swirl of chaos... 330 00:16:29,435 --> 00:16:31,872 Chaos again? 331 00:16:31,916 --> 00:16:37,530 Is this a pattern for you, a form of addictive behavior? 332 00:16:39,053 --> 00:16:40,446 Wait, what? 333 00:16:40,490 --> 00:16:44,494 Is it possible that you're addicted to this chaos? 334 00:16:45,973 --> 00:16:47,584 [laughs] 335 00:16:47,627 --> 00:16:50,064 No, thank you, look, we don't need to go there. 336 00:16:51,239 --> 00:16:52,284 Why not? 337 00:16:53,633 --> 00:16:54,765 Addicted? 338 00:16:56,201 --> 00:16:58,377 You think I don't know what an addict is? 339 00:16:58,421 --> 00:17:00,423 I was raised by one. 340 00:17:00,466 --> 00:17:02,381 So you've said. 341 00:17:02,425 --> 00:17:03,991 Raised by one. 342 00:17:04,035 --> 00:17:06,690 Born from one. 343 00:17:06,733 --> 00:17:08,996 It's all you've ever known, David, 344 00:17:09,040 --> 00:17:11,956 and probably why you're so comfortable in it. 345 00:17:11,999 --> 00:17:14,132 Now you're just making shit up. 346 00:17:14,175 --> 00:17:15,612 - Am I? - Yes. 347 00:17:16,961 --> 00:17:20,486 When your life starts feeling secure, 348 00:17:20,530 --> 00:17:22,445 when your finances are buttoned up, 349 00:17:22,488 --> 00:17:23,489 your mortgage is paid, 350 00:17:23,533 --> 00:17:25,404 job starts looking mundane, 351 00:17:25,448 --> 00:17:29,103 you don't whip up that hurricane to get you back to that place, 352 00:17:29,147 --> 00:17:33,281 that place you need to feel normal, 353 00:17:33,325 --> 00:17:36,502 that place you need to feel alive? 354 00:17:36,546 --> 00:17:38,635 I'm not an addict, okay? 355 00:17:38,678 --> 00:17:40,463 Look, I barely drink. 356 00:17:40,506 --> 00:17:43,204 I don't smoke, and I've never touched an illegal 357 00:17:43,248 --> 00:17:45,076 or not prescribed drug in my life. 358 00:17:45,119 --> 00:17:48,645 Addiction takes many forms, David, 359 00:17:48,688 --> 00:17:50,298 not just chemical. 360 00:17:50,342 --> 00:17:52,910 There are other addictions harder to see. 361 00:17:52,953 --> 00:17:57,175 Repetitive patterns of thought, repetitive behaviors. 362 00:17:57,218 --> 00:17:59,177 I mean, is it really that hard to believe 363 00:17:59,220 --> 00:18:02,093 that you might have inherited addictive tendencies 364 00:18:02,136 --> 00:18:06,402 given the history of addiction in your family? 365 00:18:06,445 --> 00:18:07,881 Look, my mom is past all that. 366 00:18:07,925 --> 00:18:10,231 She been clean for years. 367 00:18:10,275 --> 00:18:12,146 The drug, sure. 368 00:18:12,190 --> 00:18:14,410 But her addiction, 369 00:18:14,453 --> 00:18:15,733 I mean, from what you've told me 370 00:18:15,759 --> 00:18:18,283 your mother has thrown herself into a second wave 371 00:18:18,326 --> 00:18:22,722 of parenting harder than any drug she's ever done. 372 00:18:22,766 --> 00:18:27,814 It's not uncommon for an addict to continue chasing a fix. 373 00:18:27,858 --> 00:18:31,644 People can get as high all for work, or love, 374 00:18:31,688 --> 00:18:34,778 or caregiving as they can off of heroine. 375 00:18:36,432 --> 00:18:40,827 They can even OD on it. 376 00:18:40,871 --> 00:18:42,612 Hey! 377 00:18:42,655 --> 00:18:44,483 [making funny noises] 378 00:18:44,527 --> 00:18:47,617 Careful, Ma, you're gonna pull the IV right out of him. 379 00:18:49,183 --> 00:18:50,228 Hmm... 380 00:18:52,752 --> 00:18:55,712 Gloria definitely OD's with JG. 381 00:18:57,714 --> 00:19:01,152 - With parenting? - Oh, yeah. 382 00:19:01,848 --> 00:19:04,024 How about with you? 383 00:19:04,068 --> 00:19:06,592 [laughs] 384 00:19:08,464 --> 00:19:09,726 What's funny about that? 385 00:19:11,597 --> 00:19:14,426 I missed that wave, no. 386 00:19:14,470 --> 00:19:16,515 Because of her drug addiction? 387 00:19:16,559 --> 00:19:17,603 I did what I had to do 388 00:19:17,647 --> 00:19:20,519 to be the parent of the house, the man. 389 00:19:20,563 --> 00:19:23,043 Everyone needs a parent, David. 390 00:19:23,087 --> 00:19:27,047 Yeah, well, Gloria and JG needed it more than I did, 391 00:19:27,744 --> 00:19:29,223 and I was there. 392 00:19:30,094 --> 00:19:32,270 Even when your brother got shot? 393 00:19:36,230 --> 00:19:39,233 The last time you told me you barely went to see JG 394 00:19:39,277 --> 00:19:40,670 when he was in the coma. 395 00:19:42,672 --> 00:19:45,849 [beeping] 396 00:19:50,506 --> 00:19:53,160 I'm wondering where the man of the house was then. 397 00:19:53,204 --> 00:19:56,294 Look, you don't know shit about being his brother. 398 00:19:56,337 --> 00:19:59,340 It was up to me to look out for JG and keep him safe. 399 00:19:59,384 --> 00:20:02,779 I didn't ask for that, but I did it, 400 00:20:02,822 --> 00:20:06,391 and then he came to a point where I couldn't help. 401 00:20:06,434 --> 00:20:07,479 I couldn't look so... 402 00:20:07,523 --> 00:20:09,307 You killed him off in your head? 403 00:20:11,657 --> 00:20:14,878 The day JG decided to go to school for police training, 404 00:20:14,921 --> 00:20:18,272 you knew you could no longer protect him. 405 00:20:18,316 --> 00:20:21,667 Policing is a potentially life-threatening profession, 406 00:20:21,711 --> 00:20:23,277 isn't it? 407 00:20:23,321 --> 00:20:26,411 And all of that protection left your control. 408 00:20:27,630 --> 00:20:30,371 It's understandable. 409 00:20:30,415 --> 00:20:34,419 You had to create that emotional distance to make room 410 00:20:34,462 --> 00:20:36,943 for the possibility of losing him. 411 00:20:39,511 --> 00:20:43,254 I suspect JG's been gone to you for some time. 412 00:20:45,735 --> 00:20:47,824 You don't return his affection. 413 00:20:48,651 --> 00:20:50,522 Keep him at arms length. 414 00:20:50,566 --> 00:20:53,177 Watching him and your mother like 415 00:20:56,876 --> 00:20:59,357 in the present like a memory. 416 00:21:00,967 --> 00:21:03,622 Not getting too close because if you touch it, 417 00:21:04,928 --> 00:21:06,538 it might fade, 418 00:21:08,496 --> 00:21:09,585 or go away. 419 00:21:11,369 --> 00:21:13,763 Did you ever ask your mother how she was feeling 420 00:21:13,806 --> 00:21:16,156 when JG was in the hospital? 421 00:21:16,200 --> 00:21:20,508 Or was she already lost in your mind? 422 00:21:20,552 --> 00:21:21,988 It didn't even occur to you? 423 00:21:24,817 --> 00:21:30,649 And it must ache watching them live, 424 00:21:32,825 --> 00:21:34,914 and being too afraid to love them 425 00:21:34,958 --> 00:21:38,439 because they might go. 426 00:21:40,006 --> 00:21:41,878 Who else are you keeping from? 427 00:21:44,315 --> 00:21:45,621 I'm wondering 428 00:21:47,927 --> 00:21:50,582 who else you might have buried? 429 00:21:50,626 --> 00:21:53,629 [suspenseful music] 430 00:22:10,297 --> 00:22:11,472 I'm thirsty. 431 00:22:14,737 --> 00:22:15,912 You doing all right? 432 00:22:17,609 --> 00:22:18,871 I'm fine. 433 00:22:18,915 --> 00:22:20,873 You think I could grab some water? 434 00:22:20,917 --> 00:22:22,440 Help yourself. 435 00:22:28,620 --> 00:22:30,056 You gotta say something. 436 00:22:47,204 --> 00:22:48,858 - Can we... - Talk some more? 437 00:22:48,901 --> 00:22:50,468 I think I was ready. 438 00:22:50,511 --> 00:22:51,730 Yes, yes, of course, 439 00:22:51,774 --> 00:22:53,950 but before we dive in to that, 440 00:22:53,993 --> 00:22:56,387 please just know that it's not uncommon 441 00:22:56,430 --> 00:22:58,737 to create emotional distance in order 442 00:22:58,781 --> 00:22:59,869 to protect one's self. 443 00:22:59,912 --> 00:23:03,307 We all do it in different ways. 444 00:23:03,350 --> 00:23:07,180 And I'd bet that in order for you to keep functioning, 445 00:23:07,224 --> 00:23:09,661 to keep pressing forward, 446 00:23:09,705 --> 00:23:12,925 you've to distance more than just your brother 447 00:23:12,969 --> 00:23:15,232 and your mother in your head. 448 00:23:15,275 --> 00:23:17,887 - It's true, I... - All right, I-I hear you, 449 00:23:17,930 --> 00:23:19,323 - but can we... - I'm curious 450 00:23:19,366 --> 00:23:21,281 who else you've buried, David. 451 00:23:25,721 --> 00:23:28,854 Didn't you lose someone when you were very young, 452 00:23:28,898 --> 00:23:29,899 15 or so, 453 00:23:29,942 --> 00:23:34,120 a father figure, a mentor, 454 00:23:34,164 --> 00:23:35,948 what was his name? 455 00:23:37,036 --> 00:23:38,995 Ocean, River? 456 00:23:39,038 --> 00:23:40,692 His name was Sky. 457 00:23:43,739 --> 00:23:45,523 His name was Sky. 458 00:23:45,566 --> 00:23:48,352 Yes, that's it. 459 00:23:48,395 --> 00:23:49,875 From what little you told me, 460 00:23:49,919 --> 00:23:52,443 Sky had a big influence in your life. 461 00:23:56,055 --> 00:23:58,710 They got me seeing the school psychologist. 462 00:23:58,754 --> 00:24:00,016 Well? Play that shit. 463 00:24:00,059 --> 00:24:01,887 Get her to see that you are exceptional. 464 00:24:01,931 --> 00:24:07,110 Some I love who are dead, who are watchers of the moon. 465 00:24:07,153 --> 00:24:09,852 It shines tonight upon their graves. 466 00:24:09,895 --> 00:24:11,810 Always school. 467 00:24:11,854 --> 00:24:13,769 Always a chance to... 468 00:24:13,812 --> 00:24:15,901 You know where your classmates are right now? 469 00:24:15,945 --> 00:24:17,207 They in Monaco. 470 00:24:17,250 --> 00:24:19,296 They in Tuscany drinking wine and shit. 471 00:24:19,339 --> 00:24:21,864 You know where Tuscany is? [Chuckles] 472 00:24:21,907 --> 00:24:24,867 No, because you're sitting here thinking 473 00:24:24,910 --> 00:24:27,521 I'm grooming you to be the next. 474 00:24:27,565 --> 00:24:29,175 What I tell you about the Ville, huh? 475 00:24:29,219 --> 00:24:31,656 Built like this for a reason. 476 00:24:31,699 --> 00:24:33,092 It seem nice, 477 00:24:33,136 --> 00:24:35,225 but it's just another holding cell, Young Brave. 478 00:24:37,009 --> 00:24:38,794 He taught me a lot. 479 00:24:39,882 --> 00:24:41,187 What did he teach you? 480 00:24:42,798 --> 00:24:47,193 He was always on me, "Keep JG outta trouble." 481 00:24:48,934 --> 00:24:51,241 - Let go, Dai, let go! - [young David] Step back. 482 00:24:51,284 --> 00:24:53,025 "Pay the rent on time." 483 00:24:53,069 --> 00:24:54,592 You can't pay in cash! 484 00:24:54,635 --> 00:24:56,246 People steal from that box all the time! 485 00:24:56,289 --> 00:24:58,552 - I did good, Dai! - Did good, that money gone! 486 00:24:58,596 --> 00:25:00,685 - "Make sure mama clean." - [young JG] What's this? 487 00:25:04,732 --> 00:25:06,865 It's just some strong aspirin somebody gave Mama 488 00:25:06,909 --> 00:25:08,214 for her pain, baby. 489 00:25:08,998 --> 00:25:12,392 [chuckles] 490 00:25:14,307 --> 00:25:16,266 After Sky was shot, 491 00:25:16,309 --> 00:25:18,964 after you lost him, 492 00:25:19,008 --> 00:25:21,314 you see him again in your mind's eye? 493 00:25:23,926 --> 00:25:25,101 All the time. 494 00:25:30,280 --> 00:25:34,284 - Do you see him now? - No. 495 00:25:35,981 --> 00:25:38,549 What do you see, anyone else? 496 00:25:43,684 --> 00:25:44,468 No. 497 00:25:44,511 --> 00:25:46,905 C'mon, s-she's tryna help. 498 00:26:04,183 --> 00:26:07,099 So... 499 00:26:07,143 --> 00:26:11,277 Sky appeared to you after he passed? 500 00:26:11,321 --> 00:26:15,934 Yes, sometimes, to and from school, 501 00:26:15,978 --> 00:26:17,936 around the Ville. 502 00:26:17,980 --> 00:26:19,677 And after that? 503 00:26:19,720 --> 00:26:24,551 When you went off to school, college? 504 00:26:29,861 --> 00:26:31,602 Why do you think that is? 505 00:26:31,645 --> 00:26:33,909 [young David] I was going places Sky never been. 506 00:26:35,084 --> 00:26:37,869 Doing things he never done. 507 00:26:37,913 --> 00:26:40,959 I could only imagine what he would say if he was in those situations, 508 00:26:41,003 --> 00:26:42,526 [Halloway] Maybe 509 00:26:44,745 --> 00:26:46,225 you were outgrowing him. 510 00:26:49,054 --> 00:26:50,447 I guess that's possible. 511 00:26:51,796 --> 00:26:53,537 That can be painful, too. 512 00:26:56,018 --> 00:27:00,196 I imagine it must have felt terrible to lose him, 513 00:27:00,239 --> 00:27:02,763 not once, but twice. 514 00:27:02,807 --> 00:27:04,591 Felt like the first time all over again. 515 00:27:04,635 --> 00:27:07,986 And is there an element of guilt here too? 516 00:27:08,030 --> 00:27:09,205 Yes, of course! 517 00:27:09,248 --> 00:27:10,815 I'm here and he is not. 518 00:27:10,858 --> 00:27:13,470 Is it possible that you might blame yourself 519 00:27:13,513 --> 00:27:16,299 for losing Sky a second time? 520 00:27:22,479 --> 00:27:28,659 Perhaps you never really got to mourn 521 00:27:28,702 --> 00:27:30,748 the loss of Sky, 522 00:27:30,791 --> 00:27:35,927 because you had to be strong for everyone else, 523 00:27:35,971 --> 00:27:38,016 like he told you. 524 00:27:38,060 --> 00:27:40,453 So instead of mourning him, 525 00:27:42,194 --> 00:27:43,674 you had to erase him. 526 00:27:45,589 --> 00:27:52,204 That kid, that kid who lost Sky once, 527 00:27:52,248 --> 00:27:54,206 then had to outgrow him 528 00:27:54,250 --> 00:27:56,382 and lose Sky twice, 529 00:27:57,209 --> 00:27:59,907 have you forgiven him? 530 00:27:59,951 --> 00:28:02,693 Can you forgive him? 531 00:28:02,736 --> 00:28:05,000 Maybe those were the only tools he had, 532 00:28:05,043 --> 00:28:07,045 that's all he knew how to do. 533 00:28:13,182 --> 00:28:16,228 David, I am not trying to hurt you, 534 00:28:17,708 --> 00:28:20,537 but I have to point out the hurt that I see. 535 00:28:21,233 --> 00:28:22,539 Understand? 536 00:28:24,019 --> 00:28:25,411 - Yes. - Yes, ma'am. 537 00:28:25,455 --> 00:28:28,458 [Halloway] I think there's a world of hurt there, 538 00:28:28,501 --> 00:28:30,416 that had to skip mourning, 539 00:28:34,072 --> 00:28:35,334 and I think that maybe 540 00:28:35,378 --> 00:28:39,034 that's what you're in touch with right now. 541 00:28:39,077 --> 00:28:40,426 I'm not crazy. 542 00:28:40,470 --> 00:28:43,081 But do you ever talk to that part of you, 543 00:28:44,822 --> 00:28:47,085 or even acknowledge him? 544 00:28:47,129 --> 00:28:48,086 Some role-playing bullshit, 545 00:28:48,130 --> 00:28:50,088 - I'm not doing... - Sky was the one 546 00:28:50,132 --> 00:28:51,959 who left you, David. 547 00:28:53,309 --> 00:28:55,746 It wasn't your fault, 548 00:28:55,789 --> 00:28:59,402 and you can't go on blaming yourself. 549 00:28:59,445 --> 00:29:03,232 Now or for what you had to do back then. 550 00:29:03,275 --> 00:29:06,931 [suspenseful music] 551 00:29:09,238 --> 00:29:11,805 [Sky sighs] 552 00:29:11,849 --> 00:29:13,851 [Sky] Don't look, don't. 553 00:29:13,894 --> 00:29:15,070 [gun fires] 554 00:29:19,422 --> 00:29:21,902 - "Just stay ready..." - [young David] "Just stay ready, 555 00:29:21,946 --> 00:29:24,227 - won't I have to get..." - "...won't have to get ready." 556 00:29:26,298 --> 00:29:28,605 Is that what Sky taught you? 557 00:29:29,388 --> 00:29:31,608 It was bullshit. 558 00:29:31,651 --> 00:29:33,349 'Cause he ain't stay ready. 559 00:29:35,046 --> 00:29:36,091 David 560 00:29:39,355 --> 00:29:40,834 look at me. 561 00:29:45,230 --> 00:29:46,275 You were 15... 562 00:29:46,318 --> 00:29:48,712 [somber music] 563 00:29:48,755 --> 00:29:49,887 A child. 564 00:29:52,846 --> 00:29:55,849 Whatever happened, it wasn't your fault. 565 00:29:59,201 --> 00:30:00,985 That boy 566 00:30:03,292 --> 00:30:06,991 couldn't have stopped what happened. 567 00:30:07,034 --> 00:30:10,821 [somber suspenseful music] 568 00:30:27,054 --> 00:30:29,361 [lighter clicks] 569 00:30:36,412 --> 00:30:38,501 [cigarette burns] 570 00:30:40,024 --> 00:30:41,330 [Sky chuckles] 571 00:30:41,373 --> 00:30:43,984 You've done well for yourself, Dai. 572 00:30:45,812 --> 00:30:49,425 [chuckles] David. 573 00:30:51,470 --> 00:30:55,170 I stay ready, always. 574 00:30:56,040 --> 00:30:57,084 Man o' War. 575 00:30:58,869 --> 00:31:00,784 Man o' War. 576 00:31:00,827 --> 00:31:04,701 Who's Man o' War, David? Was that Sky? 577 00:31:04,744 --> 00:31:06,268 No. 578 00:31:06,311 --> 00:31:08,226 - It was me. - It was me. 579 00:31:08,270 --> 00:31:09,662 [David It's what he called me, 580 00:31:09,706 --> 00:31:12,143 but I wasn't that, not at all. 581 00:31:13,057 --> 00:31:14,189 How so? 582 00:31:14,232 --> 00:31:16,365 Man o' War always stay on top, 583 00:31:16,408 --> 00:31:20,151 and I wanted... I wanted to save him. 584 00:31:20,195 --> 00:31:21,935 I didn't wanna float. 585 00:31:21,979 --> 00:31:25,287 - I wanted to... - Why'd he tell me to run? 586 00:31:25,330 --> 00:31:26,897 I-I could have done something. 587 00:31:30,683 --> 00:31:32,294 When we lose someone we love, 588 00:31:32,337 --> 00:31:35,514 it's normal to feel anger toward them for leaving. 589 00:31:38,778 --> 00:31:41,216 Why not take that load off? 590 00:31:42,826 --> 00:31:45,307 Things just happen sometimes. 591 00:31:46,960 --> 00:31:48,658 He left me! 592 00:31:48,701 --> 00:31:50,486 Maybe no one's to blame. 593 00:31:50,529 --> 00:31:52,531 I shouldn't have listened to his sorry ass! 594 00:31:52,575 --> 00:31:55,055 Now I'm here tryna stay ready. 595 00:31:55,099 --> 00:31:56,927 I'm tryna stay up! 596 00:31:56,970 --> 00:31:58,320 I-I can't stop it. 597 00:31:58,363 --> 00:31:59,495 [Halloway] Stop what? 598 00:31:59,538 --> 00:32:01,410 It's just relentless in my face. 599 00:32:01,453 --> 00:32:02,367 Sky? 600 00:32:02,411 --> 00:32:05,283 No, not... No. 601 00:32:05,327 --> 00:32:09,244 That boy who let Sky die? 602 00:32:10,201 --> 00:32:11,420 I fucked up! 603 00:32:12,334 --> 00:32:13,596 I can't let it be. 604 00:32:13,639 --> 00:32:15,380 [young David] I ain't leaving nothing! 605 00:32:15,424 --> 00:32:17,164 Everyone's always leaving me. 606 00:32:17,208 --> 00:32:19,689 He's so hurt all the time, 607 00:32:19,732 --> 00:32:23,040 I mean, I can't... I can't fix it. 608 00:32:23,083 --> 00:32:24,563 It drops in on me, 609 00:32:24,607 --> 00:32:27,740 or it turns on like you said, like a performance, 610 00:32:27,784 --> 00:32:32,310 and then I get stuck tryna keep shit from blowing up. 611 00:32:32,354 --> 00:32:33,529 Real talk! 612 00:32:33,572 --> 00:32:34,443 Hmm? Hmm? 613 00:32:34,486 --> 00:32:36,096 Say that shit to me. 614 00:32:36,140 --> 00:32:37,446 Say that shit to me! 615 00:32:37,489 --> 00:32:39,665 He's out of control. 616 00:32:39,709 --> 00:32:40,753 I gotta push him away, 617 00:32:40,797 --> 00:32:42,277 or put him in timeout, 618 00:32:42,320 --> 00:32:45,062 because he's gonna blow everything up. 619 00:32:46,150 --> 00:32:47,891 I handle shit. 620 00:32:47,934 --> 00:32:50,241 I think on my feet. I'm good with people. 621 00:32:52,156 --> 00:32:53,984 You lied to me. 622 00:32:54,027 --> 00:32:57,901 Nothing makes me feel quite as foolish as being lied to. 623 00:32:57,944 --> 00:33:00,425 A lie by omission is just that. 624 00:33:00,469 --> 00:33:02,601 It was just... 625 00:33:02,645 --> 00:33:04,429 My little brother could be a fuck up, 626 00:33:04,473 --> 00:33:06,301 and I thought if I could... 627 00:33:06,344 --> 00:33:09,478 I thought if I could handle this before everything gets out, 628 00:33:09,521 --> 00:33:12,089 it will save some embarrassment. 629 00:33:12,132 --> 00:33:14,352 It was a coincidence, a horrible one, 630 00:33:14,396 --> 00:33:15,919 and I didn't say anything, 631 00:33:15,962 --> 00:33:17,747 because I wasn't ready to talk about it. 632 00:33:17,790 --> 00:33:20,445 I didn't even tell the woman I was seeing, 633 00:33:20,489 --> 00:33:23,274 and I didn't tell anyone. 634 00:33:23,318 --> 00:33:27,887 Savior Dai, always tryna save the world. 635 00:33:27,931 --> 00:33:29,889 Always tryna blow shit up or drop in, 636 00:33:29,933 --> 00:33:31,456 and then when it gets tough, 637 00:33:31,500 --> 00:33:33,850 you either crying or fighting. 638 00:33:33,893 --> 00:33:36,069 I wish you'd just go the fuck away. 639 00:33:37,941 --> 00:33:40,422 Suffocating that side of you, David, 640 00:33:40,465 --> 00:33:42,772 that's a full-time job, 641 00:33:42,815 --> 00:33:44,904 and blowing things up as you put it, 642 00:33:44,948 --> 00:33:47,516 that could have benefits too. 643 00:33:47,559 --> 00:33:50,823 I love this lady and she smells good. 644 00:33:50,867 --> 00:33:54,697 Our younger selves, they're unfettered. 645 00:33:54,740 --> 00:33:56,394 Wait, that don't sound good. 646 00:33:56,438 --> 00:33:59,266 And that's not always a negative thing. 647 00:33:59,310 --> 00:34:00,572 Okay, good. 648 00:34:00,616 --> 00:34:03,793 Not having your grip so tightly 649 00:34:03,836 --> 00:34:07,666 on control could be a welcome thing 650 00:34:07,710 --> 00:34:09,494 every now and then, couldn't it? 651 00:34:10,452 --> 00:34:11,975 I mean, when was the last time 652 00:34:12,018 --> 00:34:14,107 you had even a little bit of fun? 653 00:34:18,242 --> 00:34:22,507 [kids chattering] 654 00:34:22,551 --> 00:34:25,249 The last time I had fun, I was at the bottom of a pool. 655 00:34:26,424 --> 00:34:28,252 And when was that? 656 00:34:28,295 --> 00:34:29,819 Sophomore year at Hurston. 657 00:34:30,820 --> 00:34:32,256 I thought it was fun. 658 00:34:33,388 --> 00:34:34,780 That's quite a while. 659 00:34:36,303 --> 00:34:39,263 Hurston was generally a happy experience for you? 660 00:34:40,525 --> 00:34:42,222 Yeah, I thought so at first. 661 00:34:42,266 --> 00:34:43,615 I felt accepted. 662 00:34:43,659 --> 00:34:44,964 It felt like home, 663 00:34:45,878 --> 00:34:47,271 but I was dead wrong. 664 00:34:48,490 --> 00:34:51,101 [kids clamoring] 665 00:34:58,543 --> 00:35:02,634 I let my guard down and I almost drowned that day. 666 00:35:02,678 --> 00:35:05,507 They forgot me at the bottom of that pool. 667 00:35:07,552 --> 00:35:08,640 I didn't stay ready. 668 00:35:09,815 --> 00:35:11,295 I didn't listen to Sky. 669 00:35:14,254 --> 00:35:15,604 I already had forgotten, 670 00:35:15,647 --> 00:35:20,043 but I never let my guard down again after that. 671 00:35:22,219 --> 00:35:24,482 And I left that naive, goofy ass kid 672 00:35:24,526 --> 00:35:26,571 at the bottom of that pool. 673 00:35:26,615 --> 00:35:29,400 Wow, all that time, 674 00:35:31,837 --> 00:35:36,755 and any friends or fun you were having along with him? 675 00:35:37,756 --> 00:35:39,236 I did what I had to do. 676 00:35:40,672 --> 00:35:43,893 Have you had friends since then, David? 677 00:35:45,982 --> 00:35:51,944 In college, I guess, but since, no. 678 00:35:51,988 --> 00:35:55,905 Sounds like a pretty lonely life you've been living, 679 00:35:55,948 --> 00:35:58,864 isolating yourself that way, 680 00:35:58,908 --> 00:36:01,867 but also cutting off anyone in your mind 681 00:36:01,911 --> 00:36:03,652 who was close to you. 682 00:36:03,695 --> 00:36:07,612 Anyone who might make you feel something. 683 00:36:09,919 --> 00:36:13,618 Maybe it's time to rip down some walls, 684 00:36:13,662 --> 00:36:15,185 come up for some air. 685 00:36:17,709 --> 00:36:21,408 Let some people who were close to you back in. 686 00:36:21,452 --> 00:36:26,457 Emotion, no matter what kind isn't going 687 00:36:26,501 --> 00:36:28,938 to destroy you, David. 688 00:36:30,156 --> 00:36:35,814 [young David breathing heavily] 689 00:36:42,691 --> 00:36:46,999 [clock ticking] 690 00:37:01,840 --> 00:37:03,189 Where are your eyes? 691 00:37:04,626 --> 00:37:06,889 Are you remembering, David? 692 00:37:09,500 --> 00:37:10,806 Momma? 693 00:37:13,635 --> 00:37:14,636 Momma? 694 00:37:14,679 --> 00:37:18,335 [suspenseful music] 695 00:37:18,378 --> 00:37:19,466 Momma? 696 00:37:21,120 --> 00:37:22,644 Fuck! 697 00:37:22,687 --> 00:37:26,169 If it's something or someone from the past, 698 00:37:26,212 --> 00:37:27,344 don't turn away, 699 00:37:27,387 --> 00:37:28,780 don't drown it out. 700 00:37:33,698 --> 00:37:35,439 [cries] 701 00:37:35,482 --> 00:37:38,660 [Halloway] You had to do that in the past to survive, yes, 702 00:37:38,703 --> 00:37:41,619 but it's outmoded behavior now. 703 00:37:41,663 --> 00:37:45,405 [suspenseful music] 704 00:37:45,449 --> 00:37:46,798 It served you then, 705 00:37:46,842 --> 00:37:49,192 but it doesn't serve you now. 706 00:37:50,672 --> 00:37:53,544 The first step out of this, 707 00:37:53,588 --> 00:37:56,112 you've got to try and forgive. 708 00:37:57,722 --> 00:38:02,205 It's okay, little man, you good. 709 00:38:02,248 --> 00:38:05,730 [Halloway] Forgive yourself for being scared. 710 00:38:05,774 --> 00:38:08,124 Forgive yourself for being vulnerable. 711 00:38:08,167 --> 00:38:13,390 Forgive yourself for needing help 712 00:38:13,433 --> 00:38:15,044 and not receiving it. 713 00:38:19,918 --> 00:38:22,312 Are you seeing yourself back then, 714 00:38:23,443 --> 00:38:25,184 when you needed someone? 715 00:38:27,709 --> 00:38:29,232 Good. 716 00:38:31,843 --> 00:38:34,193 Listen 717 00:38:34,237 --> 00:38:37,980 someone needed to take care of that little boy, 718 00:38:39,938 --> 00:38:41,853 and someone did. 719 00:38:50,819 --> 00:38:56,128 Now that kid who saved everyone else, 720 00:38:57,739 --> 00:38:59,958 needs your help. 721 00:39:03,396 --> 00:39:04,571 Can you... 722 00:39:04,615 --> 00:39:06,878 Do you think you can speak to him now? 723 00:39:08,663 --> 00:39:11,622 Do you think you can tell him how you're feeling 724 00:39:12,754 --> 00:39:14,277 about locking him away? 725 00:39:17,802 --> 00:39:19,543 Maybe just try. 726 00:39:35,646 --> 00:39:36,691 I'm sorry. 727 00:39:38,693 --> 00:39:40,259 I'm so, so sorry. 728 00:39:46,962 --> 00:39:49,965 [suspenseful music] 729 00:39:56,798 --> 00:40:00,715 Good, David. Excellent. 730 00:40:08,374 --> 00:40:11,160 Unfortunately, that's all the time we have for today. 731 00:40:12,770 --> 00:40:14,032 It's fantastic work, 732 00:40:14,076 --> 00:40:17,340 and we'll pick it up here next week. 733 00:40:17,383 --> 00:40:18,796 Are you... Are you kidding me right now? 734 00:40:18,820 --> 00:40:20,560 I'm really proud of you. 735 00:40:20,604 --> 00:40:22,524 Fuck all that! What the hell am I supposed to do? 736 00:40:22,562 --> 00:40:25,957 I recommend you take some time off work this week 737 00:40:26,001 --> 00:40:28,438 and have a little self-reflection, 738 00:40:28,481 --> 00:40:30,788 maybe even some quiet meditation. 739 00:40:30,832 --> 00:40:32,157 How many times I gotta tell you, Doc, 740 00:40:32,181 --> 00:40:33,965 I'm on a timeline for this project. 741 00:40:34,009 --> 00:40:35,551 I don't have time to float around for some namaste! 742 00:40:35,575 --> 00:40:38,187 It's important that you take time out 743 00:40:38,230 --> 00:40:42,844 of your busy schedule to relate to this part of yourself, 744 00:40:42,887 --> 00:40:46,543 and explore chaos in healthy ways. 745 00:40:47,718 --> 00:40:50,547 What's fun David like? 746 00:40:50,590 --> 00:40:54,290 This will all be pretty raw at first, 747 00:40:54,333 --> 00:40:56,988 and it's gonna take time, effort, 748 00:40:57,032 --> 00:40:58,642 and some getting used to, 749 00:40:58,685 --> 00:41:03,778 but I'm confident we will be able to get you 750 00:41:03,821 --> 00:41:05,954 to where you need to go 751 00:41:05,997 --> 00:41:09,174 with work and your personal life. 752 00:41:10,654 --> 00:41:13,048 [sighs] Okay? 753 00:41:25,103 --> 00:41:27,410 [vehicles swooshing] 754 00:41:33,633 --> 00:41:36,245 [panting] 755 00:41:39,857 --> 00:41:43,905 A doctor's note that says more rest, less work, 756 00:41:43,948 --> 00:41:45,254 and I'm rich. 757 00:41:46,168 --> 00:41:47,778 Nigga, we made it! 758 00:41:47,822 --> 00:41:51,129 [upbeat rock music] 759 00:41:51,173 --> 00:41:53,392 Where are you going? 760 00:41:53,436 --> 00:41:55,046 You at timeout now, nigga. 761 00:41:55,090 --> 00:41:57,179 ♪ Wake up in the morning It's a positive ♪ 762 00:41:57,222 --> 00:41:58,397 ♪ Thinking about the world 763 00:41:58,441 --> 00:42:00,269 ♪ How should I live 764 00:42:00,312 --> 00:42:02,053 ♪ Every time I gotta Bench press time ♪ 765 00:42:02,097 --> 00:42:04,186 ♪ Trying to keep negativity Off my mind ♪ 766 00:42:04,229 --> 00:42:06,797 ♪ Focus on life A few things matter ♪ 767 00:42:06,841 --> 00:42:09,147 ♪ As I make my way Up this ladder ♪ 768 00:42:09,191 --> 00:42:11,671 ♪ Tryna be on top And be that star ♪ 769 00:42:11,715 --> 00:42:14,065 ♪ In my mind I know I'm going far ♪ 770 00:42:14,109 --> 00:42:16,067 ♪ I gotta give it my all 771 00:42:16,111 --> 00:42:17,112 ♪ I won't stop 772 00:42:17,155 --> 00:42:18,330 ♪ I can't stop 773 00:42:18,374 --> 00:42:19,984 ♪ Until I drop 774 00:42:20,028 --> 00:42:20,985 ♪ I gotta give it my all 775 00:42:21,029 --> 00:42:24,336 [upbeat music concludes] 776 00:42:24,380 --> 00:42:25,792 - [typewriter punches] - [people scream] 777 00:42:25,816 --> 00:42:27,905 [logo swooshes] 778 00:42:27,949 --> 00:42:30,908 [chiming music] 779 00:42:30,952 --> 00:42:32,867 [epic music] 780 00:42:33,620 --> 00:43:33,592 Please rate this subtitle at www.osdb.link/8gcur Help other users to choose the best subtitles 781 00:43:33,642 --> 00:43:38,192 Repair and Synchronization by Easy Subtitles Synchronizer 1.0.0.0